Today I took a leap into the unknown and, as daunting as it might be, I’m also completely energised and excited for the next steps.
That’s the thing about taking a chance – it can be terrifying and exhilarating at the same time. I’m not talking here about a little risk; I’m talking about nothing less than pursuing a dream
You see, I’ve had this idea rattling around my head for a while. I’m really proud of the book I published a few months back (Depression? F*** Depression!) and I want to bring it to a larger audience, because I want to be able to make a positive difference for people who might be experiencing a mental illness. Marketing and sales aren’t my strong suit because, to be blunt, I can’t stand selling. And don’t give me any of that “it’s not selling; it’s helping people to fulfil a need they didn’t know they had” nonsense. I’m nearly 40 so I think I can quite say with strong conviction that selling is not for me. What I do love, however, is talking to people and presenting. Back in my corporate days I spent a few years as a trainer and nothing made me happier than running professional development programs. Combined with my love of coaching people (focused on self-development), I have a unique opportunity to do something a bit different.
For the past few months I’ve been toying with the idea of starting up my own YouTube series called ‘Let’s Talk About Mental Health’ where I would talk about topics related to mental health and wellbeing, and provide practical tools and guidance for surviving and thriving in spite of mental illness. All of this ties back to my personal experiences with depression and anxiety, the research I did for my book, and my ongoing learning as I continue my degree in Psychology (one more year to go!). Recording episodes would be easy enough as I have the basic equipment I need and I’m comfortable with editing – and besides, it’s about the quality of the content, not presenting a super-polished video to begin with. I mapped out my introductory episode and was all ready to go.
That was four weeks ago.
Suddenly, I found a million reasons to delay recording. The housework needed doing. Family issues meant I wasn’t in the headspace. I had other work that needed to be done first. Hell, one day I even delayed because the next-door neighbour was mowing and I decided the light wouldn’t be right by the time they had finished. Then I realised what I was doing – self-sabotaging by making excuses and letting my fear take over. When I thought about it, what was holding me back was actually quite shallow: it was fear about my weight. As I’ve mentioned before (and in my book), one of my main coping mechanisms during the worst of my depression and anxiety was comfort eating, resulting in significant weight gain. I’d love to say I’ve since dropped some of the weight however, alas, I seem to have found a million and one excuses to delay that as well… but that’s a conversation for another day.
So, I pushed through my fear and did it. I recorded myself, quickly edited the video and loaded it up onto YouTube before I could change my mind. And you know what? I’m so glad I did. It’s the first step in connecting with people and talking about mental health and wellbeing, and I’m delighted to be starting this new chapter. Check it out for yourself at www.youtube.com/jeremygodwin1976 – if you like it, please subscribe and share!
Since I pushed through a fairly major fear today, I’m going to ask each and every one of you to consider: What’s holding you back? And what’s the worst thing that would happen if you just took a chance? And then… take a chance! Go on, do it now! And feel free to let me know how you go; I’d love to hear all about it!
Until next time – keep smiling!
My book, Depression? F*** Depression!, is on sale in eBook format on the Apple iBookstore and Amazon Kindle. Featuring 260 pages of practical advice about understanding and dealing with mental illnesses like depression and anxiety, it’s part memoir and part self-help guide. Grab it on Apple iBooks HERE for only $0.99 (AUD/USD/CAD)/£0.49/€0.99 or on Amazon Kindle HERE for just $0.99 USD/£0.99/€0.99. Also available to buy in print from Amazon and Book Depository.